Entering the Feeling

Today I’m working with some feelings of inadequacy. It’s the kind of feeling that creeps in unexpectedly and without warning, like its been living under my sternum for months, giving me little doses of low confidence once in a while, but mostly keeping itself in check. Do you know what I mean?

This afternoon, though, I let out the feelings of inadequacy from their ribbed cage and they had much to say as they rattled and clanged their way out. Instead of shutting these voices down with the silent treatment or pep talks, I let them yell, and this is what they said, in the form of art:

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Right now, I think the “cures” for these feelings can be found in the repeated words at the bottom and top, but I’m not sure yet. And I think the egg means hope of some kind. In a world where we often share our “best moments” with the world — our smiling selfies, our accomplishments, and our important and pivotal moments of greatness — I think it’s also important to be real with what is irking us, with what challenges us, with what we’re still working on even after over 40 years of life. Sometimes we need to expose the pain that’s living behind our chests, and for me, I need to turn it into art, and apparently I need to share it on my blog, too.

What are you methods of dealing with those tight feelings of fear or inadequacy or pain? If they could express themselves outside of you, what form would they take?

love,

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2 Comments

  1. Here’s my newest, with credits going to one of my sessions at the yoga conference, and with my own adaptations:

    1. using a pencil, write down a list of the stories you tell yourself that don’t serve you. “i’m not good enough” or “i don’t deserve a loving and healthy long-term relationship” or “my sagging breasts are repulsive” for instance. leave several lines of space in between each.

    2. in a red pen, write an alternative story–a truth that would lift you up–even if it feels like a lie for now. “i offer the world so much” or “i am filled with love and deserve love and have so much love to give” or “my breasts have changed throughout my life in many ways and will continue to–and what fun to see this evolution of a body” for instance.

    3. go back and erase all those silly stories that you tell yourself over and over. that are painful. that don’t serve you.

    4. look at those glorious statements in red. read them. again and again.

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      Thank you for this, Jes! What a beautiful way to get the negativity out on the page and to literally see a transformation once you erase with the pencil!

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